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It has been awhile since I have posted. I apologize. The past few weeks have been a nightmare...
It all seems like some bad TV movie of the week... one of those things you see on Oprah or on 20/20 and think could never happen to you. We see and hear about it everyday-- we learn to be careful... not to trust people... to check out the legitimacy of things being presented to us... But, sometimes, apparently as I know now, there really isnt such thing as "taking too much precaution."
As many of you know, my friend Chris and I have been in the attempt to move to a bigger and better place for some time. Recently, not just one, but twice, we thought the oppurtunity had finally come to us. As we know now, in the last 48 hours, this is far from the case.
This whole dilemna starts with someone supposedly named Drew Housand... aka Drew Preston... aka i really dont know how many other names at this point! (http://www.myspace.com/06bmwkid )

I had known Drew online, via FaceBook, for some time. However, we had just in recent months started hanging out in person. He seemed like one of those "good guys" that are hard to find in LA... someone that you become good friends with instantly without question.
Shortly after our Halloween party, Drew approached Chris and I under the intentions of having the three of us get a new place together. Agreeing, as there was no sign that this guy was of trouble, Chris and I agreed...
About two weeks ago, the three of us applied for a house at 1247 N. Olive Drive, West Hollywood, CA. We were told over the phone, to Drew, we were approved and could move in the following Saturday.
In the midst of waiting to move, Drew had ordered new beds for us. The mattresses were apparently delivered to the new house and were placed on the back patio safe and sound!
Come that Saturday, Drew apparently received a phone call saying that the realtor's mother had suddenly passed away and that there would be delays in obtaining the keys. Understanding his loss, there was no need to press the issue of the keys... However, it was requested that Drew's mother meet the realtor in person to finalize the lease and bring us the keys if needed. Chris and I were lead to believe this was happening. Yet, things took a different turn as it was being relayed to us, through Drew, that his mother had been left waiting for five hours at the realtor's mother's house, etc etc... She finally obtained the keys and, as we were told, finalized everything on the house. At that, we are told we are to meet her in front of the house around 7 pm that night... we go, and wait and wait to no appearance. Bored of the situation, Drew, Chris, our friend Wah, and I decide to grab a drink while we wait... One hour of waiting turns into several and come 2 am Chris and I decide to go back to the car in front of the house... There was still no sign of Drew's mother with the keys... Questions growing, Chris and I decide to see if the mattresses were even on the back porch. For at this point in time, we are starting to think the porn company is just ripping us off...
Chris takes a look and sure enough, there are no mattresses on the back porch... Confused, Chris and I wind up going back to my apt. and the next morning Drew proceeded to tell us that his mother did indeed show up to the house, while we were at The Abbey Bar... however, as the story goes, she was only given the gate key, but no actual house keys... When we questioned him about the mattresses not being there, he told us his mom had told the movers to put them in the moving truck to keep them safe... "How did the movers access the property to obtain the mattresses?" -- Apparently they were given the gate code by the landlord under the conditions of everything... it all made sense yet again...
So fast forward a few days... We are still waiting on the missing house keys... nothing... nothing... nothing... Drew is constantly on the phone trying to fix the situation... Finally come day three of waiting, Drew tells us that he found out the property is owned by Vivid Entertainment... aka Jenna Jameson's porn company... and that our actual landlord is a woman named Elizabeth Rachel... Finding humor in the situation, it becomes a joke-- not only are we being strung along on our keys... to top it off, it is owned by a porn studio. Questions start to fill mine and Chris' minds... "What the hell is happening?!" Meanwhile, Drew continued to "have conversations" with Elizabeth Rachel in the effort to obtain the keys directly from her. It made sense to us-- leave the realtor alone during his loss... acquire the keys directly from the owner herself! Well, come day 4-- still no keys... no cooperation... Drew cancelled the lease and we were in search of another place.
Luckily for us, the very first house we looked at (958 Vista Street-- West Hollywood) was still available. We submitted the application, was approved and moved in on Veteran's Day. On this day, a check for $8,000 was given to the owner of the house. This was to cover first, last, and deposit. We moved in and things seemed awesome...
Drew continued to order furniture for the new place... even came up with new jobs from his "friends" that he had for us and some of our friends who were having difficulties at their current place of employment. This guy seemed like a God-send... For once, after so much struggle, everything seemed to be falling into place. However, as the week progressed, questions began to arise once again for me and Chris... However, it all being new to us, we rode with the flow... There really was no sign of anything being wrong other than delayed furniture deliveries...
Two days ago, Thursday November 19th, everything came full circle and revealed itself. Chris, Drew and I spent the day moving more stuff from my old apt. to the new location. Come about 4:30 PM, Drew decided to go next door to visit our friend Danielle... Chris and I stayed behind to take care of things that needed to be done still. Perhaps ten minutes after Drew's exit, he calls to tell us that his mother is picking him up so they can get the moving truck and obtain the rest of his stuff. We are told that he would be back within an hour and we could load up the remaining items we had into the truck and do it all in one load...
The hour passes and there is no sign of Drew. Chris returned to the new house to change clothes, as it was decided that we were going to go out with friends. While he was there he was confronted by the new landlord. Chris is told that we have till 4 pm Friday the 20th to get out of the house or else our stuff would be auctioned off, etc. Quite literally, we were being evicted after only living there for a week. Confusion in hand, Chris asked for reasoning. Turns out Drew had allowed the $8,000 check to bounce. Then for the next week had been giving excuse after excuse about having sent a cashier's check, etc... Drew never ever let on to this. He hid it well! He even allowed us to believe the landlord had invited us to drinks to meet us, was on good terms, called several times to see if there was anything he could do to make the property better for us...
Chris, learning of all of this, and having it all snap into place, rushed back to the old apartment to tell me... It suddenly all made sense... Drew was not who he claimed to be... Not only with the moving situation, but with the jobs he claimed to possess himself... the jobs he offered us and a few of our friends... Hell, he obviously doesnt even know the people he claimed to know. Scam artist on the run!!!
Chris and I start to piece it all together... We find the receipt for the mattresses and Chris called to verify the transaction. We are told by the woman who assisted us in the purchase that Drew had never come through with payment. The mattresses were sent back to the warehouse-- they were never even out for delivery and there was no way they were ever delivered to the original house... Turns out none of the furniture, etc. Drew had ordered was actually paid for or even set up for delivery.... Full circle, things started to reveal themselves... And, as we continued to call those we knew were in contact with Drew and/or affected by his manipulations, more truths and more truths came out...
We spent Thursday night filing police reports... Friday we spent moving all of our stuff our of the new house... Friday evening we spent at the bank securing accounts... For, it is realized Drew never ever even applied for the 1247 N. Olive Drive house... He had merely used the attempt to apply, as a way to have Chris and I fill out the applications with all of our personal information... That is why Drew didnt want Chris and I calling the realtor or dealing with anything ourselves... That is why when my friend called on the property, during our wait for the keys, he was told it was still available.... etc etc...
We do not know where Drew is. As we were with the police, he had actually texted us telling us he was on his way back from the storage unit... at which we were told not to reply... For all we know, he has skipped town...
As for Chris and I... we are left with the mess and financial burden. For, Drew has essentially drained both of our bank accounts completely in his manipulations... Having us front the cost for every little thing, telling us that we would be paid back this day or that day... etc etc... Once he knew our accounts were depleted... he skipped out on us to leave us with the burden and legal problems he put into motion.
We know for a fact Drew has both of our personal information... including checking account numbers, social security, etc... He had asked us both several times for account numbers that his mother and grandmother were to wire money to... etc.. Needless to say, no surprise there, neither one of us have seen a dime of the supposed "wired funds". We have done all the necessary measurements to secure our information and access to banking, etc.
How did we fall for this? The guy was brilliant at it all. Talented Mr. Ripley right there in the skin! He was constantly talking on the phone... to this person or that... Banks, retail stores, family, friends, employers... always knowing when to talk on speakerphone... Always knowing what to say or do next... Many of us have come to believe his "mother" doesnt even really exist in the nature we were lead to believe. And, sure in the hell the "employers" and "friends" etc he was constantly in contact with were even less real... It is insane... The way he would call a job and rattle off his passwords, id numbers, etc for access to things... The way he always had the phone ring exactly when questions were rising in our minds... only to have the conversation then get off the phone with the very answer we were looking for... It is all surreal... I cant explain it in any better detail because it just seems so far fetched.
At this time, Drew has deleted us and many that we know, who he screwed over as well in the process, from his FaceBook, etc. He is not to be found. Chris has been forced to move back home to FL to live with his mother, under the conditions he has no other choice financially... I am still coming up with my game plan on where the next few weeks or months will take me... what to do as I literall have $1.23 to my account right now...
I know as I sit here, more of the happenings will come to my mind... But long story made short, YES THIS IS THE SHORT STORY STILL!!!!, this is what has happened... more details continue to present themselves... more realizations and "what the fuck? why didnt we see through that!" pop into mind... Like I said, it is all something worthy of a D-List made for TV Thriller...
Any questions, comments, details to add... let me know!
If anyone can help in any degree or whatnot, PayPal (www.paypal.com) is very much appreciated... I admit we can use any assistance we can get at this point and time to move forward... My account for sending funds is: townsend@inthepinkprods.com

Sincerely
JAMES TOWNSEND

no matter how much you try to go on, there are always certain people that you miss unconditionally and can not escape. i am haunted by someone who will only talk to me when they need/want something... deep down i am ripped to shreds. occassionally these wounds make themselves very clear to others. i am hurt. i am lost. i am lonely. i cant stand feeling like this...

I have come to realize quite a bit recently. I wish I could sit here and wear the fake smile yet some more and label these things as "good", but I think I have worn out that exercise. I am worn out and to a point of "I don't know"... that, being in the sense that as much as I hurt on so many levels, I have entered a stage where I am zombiefied from caring what anyone thinks anymore, and am at a stage where I have somehow accepted that this is just how my way of existence goes.
I feel numb to pretty much everything around me except one thing. That one thing challenges me everyday. But, I know now, all in all I am the butt end of the joke. When you set forth to try to do the right thing for the ones you care about, I guess we all believe somehow, through years of Oprah and "Pay it Forward" nonesense, that in the end, things will all come out golden. This is not true apparently. For, I look back over the past year or two of the people I have gone out of my way to help, love and care for, and the end story is far different from the fairy tale ending. You don't get rewarded, you don't get the prince, hell... you don't even get the friends.
FRIENDS... now that is a word to really analyze lately. Who are my friends anymore? I can't really answer that. I look around and see that those I thought to be my closest friends, really aren't. I have been lied to and manipulated on a constant basis. I am told to stand up and speak up for myself. But, when I do, I become the joke-- being ignored, passed off, made fun of, left behind. How does one stand up and speak up for themselves when everytime they do, they are merely ridiculed and made the comedy of errors? And yet, I keep trying. I keep trying to fight for myself and what I need want... and yet, it always just backfires.
I am hurt. I am hurt deep down in ways that I really have never felt. I am lonely. I am scared, stressed, worried, full of anxiety, and feeling beyond lost. I feel entirely alone anymore and have no clue what is next. I am tired, sick to death, of being pushed aside, not included, made to feel like I do not matter or possess any true meaning. There are times where no words can express any of this... where all I need is a hug or for once to be told I matter... that when I need to talk we can talk-- not told there isn't any time for such. And yet, I feel on other levels, if anyone were to really touch me, I would just dissolve into a million particles.
It is all pretty weird to think about for me. As I had said before, I thought and truly felt that for once in my LA life, I had finally found a circle of close friends that I fit in with, could be myself around, and belonged to. Who was I kidding? Certain ones got what they wanted, used me as they needed, and haven't looked back long enough to fix some of the messes they have caused. Night after night, day after day, it is just more lies and manipulation. Why? What have I done that is so wrong? If caring, loving, doing all I can to help a person, is wrong... then I guess I have succeeded in finding the fault.
And no, I am not perfect. I know at times I have been so emotionally challenged, hungry for answers or attention that I have caused arguments and tension. I have been so stressed, that I have not been accessible. I have my faults that sometimes make it difficult for someone to want to have fun with me.
Yet, all in all, truths come forward...

feeling very lonely past few days. stress of work and everything is consuming me hardcore. the one thing that makes me the happiest has the ability to also make me very sad at times. my head spins for answers... i feel left behind. i have so much to say and do... but it is hard to let it come out. i feel like my walls are going up high and solid and they shouldnt be. my anxiety attacks have come strong. i have overreacted to stuff that normally wouldnt bother me. i hate myself for such. yet, i see that deep down it is my wrong way of trying to grasp onto something sturdy and find meaning in all the things i lack answers and understanding for...

so beyond frustrated right now. whole day is a mess as I have been trying to get answers since this morning in regards to today's events. was to be in Anaheim around noon to go over film stuff for next weekend... this would give an hour till steven's b-day celebration started. i thought this was pretty clear last night after a good 30 minutes or so of messaging online. apparently not! i have been waiting all day now on people to arrive so we could head down as planned.
i cant stand waiting on people... or moreso having people wait on me. my time isnt the only time that has been wasted now. i feel like a complete douche bag being at the center of having things fucked up again.
can plans ever go as they are planned?! or is there just no regard to people's times, etc. sometimes?

FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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No words seem to come out. Whether from mouth or onto paper... I stare at a blank screen. I feel blah. Really blah. And, I cant explain it. It feels like everything around me is in hyperspeed and I am lost in a silent world. A lot has been on my mind. There are things that make me beyond happy. There are things that make me downright sad. And, on top of it all I am stressed about money and feeling bad that I can not do all of the things I would like to do or want to do for certain people around me. I know there are things I need to get done-- like the script for SIDELINE SECRETS 3. But, everytime I try to write lately, nothing comes out. Last night I had a pretty intense anxiety attack. I found myself closing off from the people around me, blocking out the sounds and sights... sorta immobolized and yet fully annoyed and upset at that around me. This coming week we are supposed to wrap final shooting on THROUPLE. It is a weird feeling. As the days to shooting get closer, I am full of mixed emotion. I am glad we are finishing it and can move on to new projects. Yet, I am saddened because Caleb is not here to see it finished or moreso be a part of it in the end. I find myself thinking about him a lot lately. It is odd. In the past year or so, we rarely talked. I did talk to him about two weeks before he passed away... he seemed happy... and interested in working on new films... It is weird how things change so quickly. I wish we didnt become so distant in the past year. I admit, there were times I didnt answer his call or IMs simply because I did not want to hear "so when do we finish shooting?!" I wish I would have answered now. He has crossed my mind almost every single day now... I don't get it. I hope THROUPLE comes through... I think he would find some amusement in all crazy the storyline and such is getting now that we have had to twist things around and enter dream worlds and other corners of the psyche to make the story work... We shall see.. I have been pretty distant today. It has been one of those days where I feel as if I could break down at any second. I hate these days. They make me feel weak and stupid. I dont explain myself in person cause I know it would cause me to break. Tears are often frowned upon... keep it bottled up. And yet all such things aside, I do not think I am depressed as I had been before. It does seem as though things are falling into place.... work, friends, etc... It seems that come summer, I will be living in a whole new world-- having a new apt., bills paid off, solid friends, etc... There is someone in my life who has had the incredible ability to make me so happy that I question if I deserve to feel such. I know that is not a healthy way of thinking. But, I am not used to it. So, I protect myself in ways that only I know. He has the ability to smile or do yet another bratty thing and I find it hard not to smile in return... deep down, i feel the happiness. That is something I havent felt in a long time really. And, at the same time, he can have a day where he is grumpy or sad himself and he can say the simplest thing out of frustration or whatnot and it hurts. It truly hurts. To have these constant good feelings challenged by the occassional hurt feeling, etc. has made me feel alive again and realize what things are important. But, I am confused... The more I explain and let out my thoughts... I am confused. Cause, I know entirely what it is that I feel... I know entirely that it grows each day... And it is an amazing feeling and scary as fuck at the same time... I know I am going to be hurt yet again... But I pray that I am not. Time will tell...
I am alone tonight. No plans. Right now, the silence and boredom is deafening... I hate being lonely. What to do?

I just finished reworking a script that is way overdue with wrapping actual filming. It has been a rollar coaster from start to finish but I am confidant we will make it work with the changes and ideas I have implemented. I wish Caleb was still around to finish the film. I have kinda been putting off the rewrites and beating myself up about the project taking so long and him not being around to finish it with us... But, now is the time to move forward with it and hopefully end things on a good note.
.... It is gonna be a mind-fuck of a movie though!!! I wish he could see it when it is finished.

I am living with Charlie and Nick. Despite the stress about money, jobs, etc. I am really happy for the first time in a long time!!!! I am smiling again and finding "me".

It is weird how things fall into place. I am excited to see how things progress. We will need a bigger apartment sooner or later but until then it is all good!

My sister had her baby on March 12. He was almost a Friday the 13th baby! Eeeks. His name is Braden. Ill have to post pics soon.  He is adorable.

Nick and I went to Chowchilla a few weeks ago to visit family and see him. I still haven really absorbed the fact that my sister has a baby now. It seems weird still.

On another note, my family totally loved Nick and have been asking us to come visit as soon as possible again. Hopefully this next trip will be more planned out and we will be more successful in seeing friends, etc as well.

Need to call on my unemployment status today...

Need to finish writing SIDELINE SECRETS 3 soon...

*just breathe*

lot more to write about... but it will have to wait. i've been writing all morning and now need a break!

oh-- Easter is this next weekend. EEEEKS.... "here comes peter cottontail, hoping down the bunny trail. hippity hoppity easter's on its way!"

:-p

I am sitting here in a complete daze... My mind is spinning out of control for understanding. I am sad, hurt, mad and confused. This is new to me, and unexpected. After the weekend I had, this is the last thing I ever expected to happen.
Caleb/Ben... what the hell?! Why?
I am full of questions and at a lost for words.
After having not been online much this weekend, having had friends over, etc. I logged into MySpace this afternoon and saw the mass of bulletin messages speaking about "celebration of life", "memorial", etc.
I clicked...
... and realized to the best of my understanding...
I don't know what to say. I am at a loss for words.
What caused this? Why? I have question after question racing through my clouded mind... and no answers...
What else is there to do?
I haven't seen you in forever. We had our times... good and bad... yet still caught each other online in discussion to "make things happen" and bitch in "Shelby" style about the boys who constantly did us wrong.. jobs that sucked... friends that lacked... The last time we chatted, you noticed I seemed happier. You quized me on "who the new boy" was. But, I did not have to tell you... it was too obvious. And, despite not seeing me in person, it is like you knew I was GLOWING. You commented about not wanting to go to class. I realized, at somewhere, sometime, we had fallen out of touch-- I did not know you had gone back to school. I was proud of you and said it sounded like things were going on track. We discussed the movie. We were merely waiting on transportation to come through in order to finish... "Do we start from scratch? Do we write to fill in the blank scenes?" all in all "we will make it work!". It was time to hang out after quite an absence. And, as always, we joked about the beyond drunken night we desperately tried to take things to a different level... how we tried, but could not necessarily perform and found ourselves just laughing our asses off with one another... knowing how stupid we had been for ever letting the idea cross our minds... We shared a twisted humor... one that often seemed to hide a deeper hurt. "Be funny... be random... be the life of any scene..." That is how it was... or so I remember... And then the times of deep discussions... what we longed for... daily summaries, weekly, then monthly, than randomly... I realize now how much time had gone by since we had actually hung out... And, in the weird twist of how things go, I had recently discussed with others, how to make our movie work... and move on to something new... and moreso... catch up and see you in person.
I can't explain how I feel right now. This is beyond unexpected. I'm just... ________.
I've never been through this before... I've never in my life been to a funeral... I've only lost one other friend... in that, I had warning. This... I do not.
Usually, with you, I'd be popping back with some off the wall joke, no matter what the circumstance and we would laugh things off... or enter our "Steel Magnolias" phase and bitch out our worries in bad southern accent... Odd, that in recent weeks I had taken our initial parody film idea and have been putting effort into finding some additional writers, etc. to assist in the project. In all honest truth, we had been watching parody videos on YouTube this morning, before I even know of "this"...
I dont know what to think or feel or say. I am confused. I don't understand...
WHY?!?!
Too much is racing through my mind right now.
I want to be there Wednesday... yet, I will admit, I have never had to ever do this before in any degree... and I am scared of it...
 

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Take a look at: www.myspace.com/jtownsendphotos for examples of my work.

You may also visit my official site at: www.jtownsendphotos.com -- mind the MySpace profile is much more up to date in terms of photo albums and daily info.

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These past few days I have been stuck in a blank stare in way I suppose. I am pretty worried about the job front... still no luck in securing  job. Therefore, it looks as though I will go register with Central Casting for background work tomorrow morning. Hey, at least it will generate a little bit of income if I can book myself a few times a week.
I am lonely. The lack of friends lately hasn't been too fun.
Moreso, I am confused about some things. Deep down, I feel stupid. I do not know how else to explain it. It is an amazing thing when you find yourself smiling and laughing again... looking forward to each day, etc... upon one little thing happening. It is downright confusing, in a head spinning, sort of way when as soon as you allow yourself to embrace that happiness and open yourself up, another road block slams its way down in front of you.
I have been doing a lot of thinking about it. And what can I do, other than what I am told to do? "Just keep doing what you're doing..."
Hmmm. "just keep doing what you're doing..."? What was I doing?
I have been trying my best to keep some distance, and let things just absorb... But, now what...
On other fronts, what the hell is with models in LA flaking left and right?! I have been flaked on by three people again this week. It is very frustrating to say the least.
Watched "Quarantine" last night... bad movie. Sucked!!!
What to do today? I do not know... I guess I should shower and see what it brings...

Anyone out there draw very well?

I am working on a book of sorts that is heavily based on illustrations.

If you or someone you know may be interested, please contact me. I am basically just waiting on the illustrations in order to put things together and find a distributor etc...

BTW, the book deals with a comical take on adult subject matter. So please take this into consideration before contacting me! Thanks

Wow. I guess times flies. I haven't made use of my LJ for a 115 weeks! That's right-- over two years ago. You can blame that on MySpace... me moving to a new apt... losing track of passwords etc. Funny how you can use something just about every single day and then let it slip into oblivion over night. Hmmm... sort of like some boys I have come to know. But, let us not start on that foot right now. My life seems to be heading up.

By the way, it did take me countless attempts in a 40 minute span to break back into my account, as the email I had registered with was expired and I had NO clue what my password was... finally I won though!!!

So, in the past years,Despite all of the hurt and confusion of the recent months in addition to being unemployed, family health problems, etc. I am trying to remain confident and look up up up.
Things are getting better. Or, so I keep telling myself.
I know all of you who used to follow my daily posts are totally lost on where things have wandered about these past two+ years of my absence here (unless u are one of the few to follow me to MySpace) but that is fine fine fine.
A lot has come and gone... but it is not time to reflect on the past.
I am seeing that now. And, as odd and as crazy as it even sounds to myself, I can somehow attribute a lot of that hopeful outlook to a few certain people... one lately in particular who has reminded me what it feels like to smile and laugh and altogether feel happy again. He is a brat, a spoiled one if that, but in some inexplicable way the butterflies are swarming inside as I try to make sense of everything around me. And to just put it in simple words, well... I do not know if I can!!! Things may never make sense. I know that. Life isn't supposed to always make sense. I have learned A LOT about myself in the past two years or so. A LOT has changed. I have grown and loved and closed, become bitter and hurt, lost loved ones, fought through various struggles... it always seems so HUGE at the time of occurrence. That is for sure. But, looking back, perhaps a lot of it wasn't that bad... there is always the future... well, in most cases that is the truth... But, right now, I am here to focus on the present.
I will do what it takes to hopefully keep smiling... keep laughing... and taking each day as it comes...

And random note, I am watching 101 DALMATIONS... I should be lucky--- at least I don't have anyone wanting to make a coat out of me!!! Well, not that I know of!

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Blockbuster -- http://www.blockbuster.com/online/catalog/movieDetails?movieId=327727

Best Buy -- Director's Cut: http://www.bestbuy.com/site/olspage.jsp?skuId=15393398&st=Sideline+Secrets&type=product&id=1611469

Best Buy -- Mainstream Version: http://www.bestbuy.com/site/olspage.jsp?skuId=15393441&st=Sideline+Secrets&type=product&id=1611474

Hastings -- Director's Cut: http://www.gohastings.com/Catalog/Item/Item.asp?prodid=220575633

Hastings -- Mainstream Version (photo not updated): http://www.gohastings.com/Catalog/Item/Item.asp?prodid=220575639

Kleptomaniac -- http://www.kleptomaniac.com/product/?prod_id=21774

Barnes & Noble -- Director's Cut: http://video.barnesandnoble.com/search/product.asp?z=y&EAN=631008063591&itm=1

Barnes & Noble -- Mainstream Version: http://video.barnesandnoble.com/search/product.asp?z=y&EAN=631008063492&itm=2

Just really excited-- My new movie (I play the lead character, Devon), "SIDELINE SECRETS" is curretly the NUMBER 2 BESTSELLER on TLAVideo.com!!! It is an erotic gay mystery/romance. Check it out and let me know what you think...</p>

Thanks for all of the support and interest guys-- you have helped make the film a success!!! If you havent already ordered a copy and would like to, please be sure to do so by clicking the picture above. Also, be sure to keep spreading the word to all your friends and stuff. I can not even begin to tell everyone how much I appreciate their help!!! It truly means a lot. Thank you!!!

It was just announced this afternoon that my new movie, "SIDELINE SECRETS", has reached the #2 Bestseller mark on TLA Video!!!! Thanks for all of the support and interest guys-- you have helped make the film a success!!! If you havent already ordered a copy, please be sure to do so by clicking the picture below!!! Also, be sure to keep spreading the word to all your friends and stuff. I can not even begin to tell everyone how much I appreciate their help!!!





Always,
JAMES

I have been on a rollar coaster lately. It seems as though as soon as one thing goes well, another things goes wrong. But, hey-- that's life. I have learned that fact again and again. But, even in that, there comes a time where one is screaming to get off and find some stable ground... possessing no twists and turns around the way. Yet, that is boring. And, boring drives me crazy...

Where to begin?! With SIDELINE SECRETS being released, climbing the charts at TLAVideo.com and that whole aspect now seeming to be the start of something great, I am in full-throttle planning of our new film "THROUPLE"; its a psychological romantic thriller! This past Saturday we had a meeting with the cast at my apartment. It is essentially a three person cast consisting of myself, Juan, and Caleb Carter. We did a few read throughs of the script and managed to get a lot accomplished in terms of where we wanted to go with the project, new ideas to incorporate, etc. It was a lot of fun and nice to see that everyone was on the same level of thought in regards to the storyline and way we want to present it. I was very satisfied.

That night however, after things had come to an end, I received an unsettling phone call. It was Steven, and out of nowhere he dropped the bomb that he doesnt wish to do so much work for In The Pink Productions anymore. Needless to say I was shocked and very upset... It put a total damper on things for the past few days as I have been a wreck trying to figure out what to do about all the upcoming projects and such. Thankfully, I did manage to talk to him again last night to some alleviance. He isn't abandoning the projects altogether. However, he doesnt want to do the lighting, filming, directing, and editing, etc... He would much rather stick to just the editing and then helping out here and there with all the other responsbilities. This came as much comfort, for the way it sounded the other night, he was ready to shove us down the drain and never look back. In a way I think it will be good that he will be cutting back to just editing the films for the most part... Hopefully it will allow him to not become so sidetracked and overwhelmed with everything, and allow him to focus on getting the films edited and released instead... He said he will start teaching me more about the lighting and stuff soon... So, lets hope it all works out. Last night after we talked, he sent me an email joking around about how mad I made him for thinking all week that he had just abandoned me entirely. I can say it actually made me smile and came as much more relief on top of things.

So, with "THROUPLE", I can say that we are actually going to start rolling cameras on Thursday, filming a few solo scenes that Juan has-- a cooking scene, bath scene, phone scene, etc... He is getting some lighting gels and stuff today from a friend... So, cross your fingers for us. All in all the project should go pretty quickly... So, be on the watch for the cover/posters and hopefully a teaser trailer in the very near future!!!

Been fighting with UPS for a week now in regards to receiving a shipment that was sent to me. I am so pissed to say the least. The delivery guy showed up last Tuesday and stated he had delivery, but that it was too heavy and he was tired so he would come back later that day. Well, he came back and delivered part of the items. But, failed to deliver the third box... again stating he was tired and would be back later... "Tired"-- yeah, its work, we all get tired-- but it is your fucking job so do it!!! On Wednesday he come back to deliver two Disney movies from Amazon that my friend Steve had sent to me as a surprise ("Lady and the Tramp" and "Cinderella"). I had no clue what they were and a little hesistant to open them knowing I had not ordered anything. But, curiosity got a hold of me and I had to see what was inside! Being the Disney dork I am, I was very excited!!! lol. Nevertheless, the third package of the delivery I was anticipating was still not delivered... and from then on it has been lost in the UPS delivery system. No one knows where it is. I have talked to the local office, delivery guy, wherehouse, corporate office, it is a mess... with a lot of deadbeat people involved who say they have placed a track on the item, then it turns out days later they never even did that much... I finally got to the top of UPS chain and talked to a guy who was not happy at the news I was sharing. And, from what I am told, he has it all fixed and the delivery for this missing item is now scheduled for today. Yet, I will believe it when I see it.

Last Sunday I wound up going to Long Beach. I was gonna hang out with Jenna that day but her work hours got all shifted around and I was unable to meet her. But, then Eric had asked me to come visit for dinner and a movie and I decided to go. He was housesitting for a friend. We wound up ordering pizza and watching "Failure to Launch"... The movie wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. It was cute in a "there is nothing else to watch" sort of way lol. The night was pretty laid back. I wound up spending the night as I did not want to drive back to LA... (my headlight is out AGAIN, and I was tired!)...

Woke up early Monday morning and headed back to LA. I had received away messages from Juan telling me we would go to Ikea and stuff that day, get lunch etc. I messaged him back and stuff, but I guess it was too late as he made plans with someone else already despite such.

Monday night, wound up going to Juan's drink promotion thing he has been doing. It was horrid. They had it at some little hole in the wall straight bar... no one was there, it was very unorganized, and just scary!!! Dropped me off after as he was supposed to go to a club and I did not want to go under certain circumstances in focus... Wound up not really sleeping that night. I had this crazy feeling haunting me, and couldn't stop thinking about a lot of stuff. I finally managed to tell myself I was wrong on my thoughts, but... I wasn't as I found out yesterday. That night, upon falling asleep I had one of the worst dreams I had ever had. It was one that woke me up and left me there too scared to move or do a damn thing... and it left me so confused... was it real?! etc. I was so drowsy, that I couldn't decipher if the dream was real or not. I HATE that although it rarely happens. It just has a way of lingering with you for a long time after. The dream involved someone accidentally dying, and being scared and going about business to cover tracks and dispose of the body, evidence, etc. It was very "Party Monster" to be honest... But then, my friend Tyler was in the dream... When I dream about Tyler it freaks me out no matter what... Just comes very unsettling to me... I wound up waking up and didnt really manage to go back to bed after.

I was online early yesterday morning and received message from Juan stating he had not been to bed yet. And, from then I just knew... And, through observations throughout the day, it only reinforced what I had come to know but was waiting to be told for reinforcement.

My psychic tendencies are scary!!! And, Carrie isnt even around to experience them with me. EEEKS!!! lol

Yesterday carried a few surprises to say the least. And, they weren't too pleasant.

I have done a lot of looking around LA at people... So many of their actions I just dont understand. I see like 200 people on my messenger list and how many do I actually really really know? Not many.. perhaps not enough to cover the count on two hands! Just dont understand a lot of the people... the stupidity, the waste. How one can treat love, sex, drugs, attitude, you name it, all like none matter is beyond me. Needless to say I have reached the point where I lose my patience very quckly. And, with that trust diminishes pretty fast as well. Yet, I am a forgiving person. It is some odd contradiction. I will be the one to tell someone how fucking stupid they are being and everything, but... somehow I forgive them in the end a lot of times... well, unless they are total bitches who did more than one or two mistakes and dont have to power to pass my tests of approval again. I can name a few of those too!!! A lot of people see the lack of patience in me for such things and target it as being jaded. Yeah, well I will admit-- perhaps I am really jaded when it comes to a lot of things here. So, put it into perspective and deal with it. I dont want to hear the whiney excuses of how "oh it was just once, never again, etc etc". Once is enough is most cases. And, usually from what I have seen-- those who are so quick to throw forth the excuses of it just being once and such, are usually just afraid and trying to make themselves believe such really will be true when the reality, known to all, is that the future will hold a lot more of the same ill-mattered subject for them. And, being told to loosen up and just try it-- no thanks. Have seen the whole drugs and random sex bullshit ruin enough lives. I don't care to join. Just remember I wont be standing in line for a front-row ticket of the freak show you create for yourselves when you give into temptations "just once"... then over and over again from then on.

This morning I woke up at 5:30. I just couldnt sleep anymore, and fact is I went to bed at like 1:00 am last night after watching like 7 or 8 episodes of "ROSEANNE". Yeah yeah, I love that show... it is one of the rare things I can watch marathons of and not get tired of too easily as I have said before... I woke up at like 5:30... I got some water, sat at my desk for a bit... then decided I had to get more sleep. As I was trying to do so, it hit me. I was nauseous!!! I ate a piece of bread, but as soon as it was down, found myself racing for the bathroom and throwing up twice. Just out of nowhere. And, after that, I felt completly fine.... I brushed my teeth, ate more bread just in case it was gonna hit me again... and went back to bed for an hour...

Still waiting for Livecharge/Neova to come through. Fingers are crossed. I had a friend trying to help me out with it all, so we will see if anything comes through. I really need it to!

TLA has placed a second order for the SIDELINE SECRETS dvds... I have to get those sent out today. I also need to do some cleaning today. My apt. clutters so quickly. Plus, I have slacked the past few days in regards to cleaning.

Supposed to make cupcakes for Vince's tomorrow... one of those odd things someone talked me into doing last Thursday. I was supposed to take them over Sunday, but I wound up going to Long Beach instead... Guess I will have to find time for that tomorrow in between shooting our scenes for THROUPLE.

Again, I am excited about THROUPLE. It is such an intimate project... should go pretty fast!!! :-p

I started reading "Without You: A memoir of love, loss, and the musical RENT" by Anthony Rapp. It seems to be one of those books that won't take very long once I get started... Guess I will report back on how it is once I read more...

Finally managed to get a new driver's license last week. I was nervous after seeing so many of the people before me failing the written test. But, I can gladly say I got 100% on the test, and my new license should be here in about 2 weeks as I have already waited 1.

I want to go see "The Lake House". I am not a Keanu fan, but people have been telling me the movie is really good... one that isnt exactly force fed to you--- makes you figure things out and decipher meaning, but still can't be analyzed too much or it becomes too complicated with not enough answers to satisfy. I kind of like that idea... leaves room for discussion. It has like a 7.4 out of 10 rating on IMDB... so I am even more intrigued after seeing it has such a high rating, when I initially thought it could be a cute movie but nothing meritting more than a 5!

Overall been missing a few people in particular. This never changes, but for some reason, it has been pretty strong lately. I can't seem to shake them from my mind... Those of you who know me can easily guess who. No names need to be placed right now... It brings too much question into my life...

Shower time.. then cleaning!!!

Hope you dont mind me sharing this information. I am very excited at the realization of it!!!!

OMG!!! Word is in-- and the a HUGE surprise, my new movie "SIDELINE SECRETS" has reached the #5 Bestseller DVD status on TLA Video (http://www.tlavideo.com) in the gay/lesbian section.

Thanks!!! I was so surprised to see us at # 5. It is truly hard for
me to grasp right now.

All I ask is that everyone continues showing their support and
assistance in getting word about the film spread more and more. If
you have seen the film, PLEASE submit a review for it to
TLAVideo.com, Amazon.com, etc... It all helps!!!

The film is a gay erotic mystery/romance. I play the lead character, Devon!

Tell your friends about the film, where they can order it, etc...
Places to order:
http://www.tlavideo.com
http://www.amazon.com
http://www.inthepinkprods.com/sidelinesecretspage
more to come!!!

It all helps!!!

Thank you soo much for all of your help guys!!!

We are #5 BESTSELLER thanks to a lot of your support and interest in
the project!!!

Sincerely,
JAMES TOWNSEND

PS-- be on the lookout for new regarding our new film-- the psychological thriller, "THROUPLE", co-starring adult model Caleb Carter !!!

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